Hiking, Travelling and Dreaming

This was intended to be my thoughts on travelling, but I'll have to tame my wanderlust for a while longer....

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

My Rant
Why do I have to be the responsible one?  It's not easy.  You criticize my ideals and call me a conformist. 
Because I think ahead and plan for the future, just incase I live till the next day.  That's why I can't spend everything I own and live life to its fullest, like you do.  Maybe this makes me a loser or a scooter to you.  But I love being independent and knowing that I can do it all by myself.  I love not having to rely on anyone.   This gives me the same satisfaction that you get when you smoke buds.  I could look at the world through your eyes but I'd prefer to open them more and not be blinded by the floaters that distract you. 
  I'm just having one of those days.  It's my day off and I'm doing too much thinking.  I think it has to do with realizing that the summer is passing by and I feel the same.  I haven't really accomplished anything new, except learning how to make special coffees.  My summers in BC, I had the outdoors to keep me entertained, to keep me motivated. It wasn't a chore it was a priviledge.  And even my slave working there was worth it for that one day off that I got to play in the mountains.  But here I work less and feel more drained.  One reason I stayed here was to get everything set up for grad school, volunteer work and stuff.   And I haven't even done that.  In fact, I may take time off after I graduate.  I have been in school for the past 16 years, and think I need to know myself before I go any further.  And any time I take off will be spent outside of Canada!!


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