Hiking, Travelling and Dreaming

This was intended to be my thoughts on travelling, but I'll have to tame my wanderlust for a while longer....

Monday, December 22, 2003

DAY 5

I have managed to survive 5 days however, I have given up on not fighting with my mom. On Saturday, dad left us for Montreal. He was sick of my mom's antics and it was about time. But after that, I grew furious at my mom. I've given up on being friendly to her. All she cares about is Réal, a bald 36 yr old unemployed bum who lives with his mom. She spends 8-10 hours a day in his presence(about what Jeremy spends watching TV) , shares our dinner with him and in order to get her back, I had to go and sulk like a baby.

Even then, she played a game of scrabble with me and then left again at 1 am to be with him. She promised me that she'd spend time with me while I was home but it was all lies as usual.

I'm planning on getting out of this place as soon as I can. I need to pack my gear up though and stick to my guts. I might stay a couple of days more for the food andTVv. My cat allergies are getting worse and I need my housekey from dadbecausez he stayed at my place.

This is surely my last trip to Matapedia. Why should I come home so that woman who is my mother can spend all of her time with her loser of a boyfriend?! I'm getting angry and might leave tonight. A bus leaves at 8 pm forMontreall, but I need my key!!

I envy anyone who has a motherbecausee you are lucky. I am not. I don't have a mother, I have a person who buys me possessions but can't stand to even talk to me. She's never been there for me. Even on my 13th birthday she was with 2 men in a canoe and I had to make my own birthday cake.

Well that'll be all for now. I'm not cleaning the house so she can run the roads. I'll be lazy like the lowlife she hangs out with!

Monday, December 15, 2003

I'm going home soon. For those who don't know me, my home is a warzone. (No, I don't live in the middle east) But my mother and I don't exactly get along. When we do, we scream, fight until there are tears! And the rest of my family talks really loud. Then the next person gets louder, it's a headache for anyone who isn't a Shearing! And once you move out, it's tough to walk through the doors of dysfunctionality! My oldest bro isn't going home. I don't blame him... But it's been a year and I'm looking forward to the food, and watching spongebob. So I'll give it a try. And this year I'm trying not to argue or fight with my mom the whole 2 weeks. That's why I'm writing in my blog again. I'll keep everyone covered with the news of Matapedia.

I got an exam tomorrow night, my last:) By the way, as strange as this seems my roommate is drinking alone in her room at the moment! I guess it's funnier to me.

Mercury is stilling living with Pepe. I figure he's (Pepe) like a cat, you feed it once, you'll never get rid of it! But Pepe's nice and he stays out of everyone's way. I'm just uncomfortable with the fact that he was interested in my 17 year old brother! Tonight I helped Merc put up xmas decorations. I'm not celebrating xmas this year 'cause I'm not Christian and why should I use someone else's holiday for my own benefit. My parents celebrate xmas for the giving, they do it all without a mention of Jesus. It's become so commercial though. Christmas is more and more extravagant. I figure it's best to quit while I'm ahead. But I might go to midnight mass despite my agnostic views. It's like live comedy in Matapedia. The alcoholics are there, knocking over pews, hiccuping... All in a Catholic church.

It's late so I'll call it quits for now.